Midnight Kiss

As the clock approached midnight, Santos realized he just might make it to the new year and lifted himself out of bed. Sylvia was at the window in her nightie watching the lights of the boats on the water. They heard footsteps on the dock and people gathering as the clock wound down . . . or was it up? Santos could never figure that out - at some point in life, the uphill climb maybe leveled out for awhile and then somewhere along the way actually became a downhill slope and then and then it was like that British character in Sun Also Rises who, when asked how one goes bankrupt, answers, two ways -slowly at first, then all at once.

Maybe that was it. Why did Santos suddenly remember that line from 40 years ago, in a book written in the 20's, as he stood in the window with midnight approaching next to a woman he'd been with for 43 years?

Down on the dock, a voice shouted - Happy New Year! And another answered - Happy New Year to you! And the fireworks were shot off the Embarcadero in the City and if you looked just right, peering through the windows of a two story house boat down the way you could see brightness against the dark sky, a showering of red and blue and gold as rockets peaked, exploded, and descended in remnants of color. . . Santos reached for Sylvia. She smiled, so lovely in the moonlight, as they kissed and welcomed in another new year together. 

In The Pink

Subject: When did I Get So Particular . . .

our daughter works in the produce section of a small organic market and often does the shopping now. She gets 20%. We’re out of bananas I say, but only get the slender ones, not the big fat ones. And don’t get green ones. You know me, I don’t buy green bananas, and she nods because she knows. Oh yeah, over and over she knows. And tangerines - get them when they are a little soft, but not too soft - you can tell the ones that are easy to peel. And there’s a secret to bosc pears, too . . . but okay we’ll save that for another day.

I’m like the old woman in a scarf and layers of big clothes and a little shopping bag - mine is Pancho Villa, pink - from a student - and when did I get so particular about my fruit, when did house samurai trade his shovel and hoe and ax and shears and typewriter and ties and briefcase and satchels and rolled joints in the glove box and jazz on the radio and homemade invoices and dread of rainy mornings and the arrival of Christmas with no money but still the bills and now gifts, and the song shine of family . . . basketballs, too, converse and ankle braces and bags of ice . . . & the classic car and vintage truck . . . for the fruit shopper who has the inside angle, knows where to go, and when and what to buy, and how, and now, writes when he wants, feels himself rise when it strikes, no matter the time time or the where where and writes because it’s now and waiting for then will leave him standing on the platform . . .  waiting for a train that may not come 'round again ~

SS Maggie

                     "Cultivate the habit of being grateful for every good thing that comes to you, and to give thanks continuously. And because all things have contributed to your advancement, you should include all things in your gratitude." - Ralph Waldo Emerson

Happy Thanksgiving, South Forty Pier, 2016

Casting Aside The Weight of Facts

photo by Dennis Bayer

Still, what I want in my life

is to be willing

to be dazzled-

to cast aside the weight of facts

and maybe even

To float a little

above this difficult world.

I want to believe I am looking

Into the white fire of a great mystery.

I want to believe that the imperfections are nothing-

that the light is everything- that it is more than the sum

of each flawed blossom rising and fading. And I do.

- Mary Oliver, from The Ponds